Almost missed it

I don't know why it is so difficult for me to learn some principles. I am sure that at times our loving Heavenly Father gets sick of having to present things several times before I get them but I am so grateful that he is patient with me and does. I am sure that this lesson is one that I will have to be retaught several times. Thursday was a whirlwind of a day. I even had tons of help and it was still crazy and difficult for me. My mom didn't have to go to work until late so she watched Seth and I got a little better morning nap than usual. Then we had Parent teacher conferences. I am pretty much sure that this is going to be something that is difficult for Rob and I thoughout Isaac's education. Brianna's was delightful. My mother in law watched the kids for the conferences. I went to Costco so that I could get the graham crackers for the activity for the Cub Scout pack meeting. Helping Andrea be in charge of the little activities for the pack meeting seemed simple enough when I was asked to do it. However I didn't take into account that I had the parent teacher conferences, or that Jaynee would need to nurse in the middle of trying to get over to the church to set up, or that Rob had his class and would not be there to help me.Even though I had gone to get some of the stuff the day before I decided that the graham crackers would be cheaper at Costco than Walmart or the dollar store so I was a mad rush to get everything done the day of...mistake I also thought that making the frosting would be better, less messy..mistake because it took more time. Luckily one of the Angels in my life was there and made the frosting. Amy Bystrom is amazing, I love that girl.Andrea is amazing she has her children help me unload the car, watch my kids during the pack meeting when they were running wildly through the cultral hall during the middle of it because they had just come from Grandma's and were on a sugar high from the cocoa and cookies she just gave them. I was rushed so I grabbed a Costco pizza to feed the kids while getting ready for the pack meeting. They were not that hungry obviously due to cookie overdose. I held Jaynee off from nursing during the entire pack meeting thinking that Isaac was going to get his bobcat. I am still not sure why he didn't get it but I am grateful now Rob will be there when he does get it. By the time we left I was completely spent. On the way home Seth starts saying I am thirsty. Are my kids the only ones that think that they should have every need met at a moments notice? They think that I am magical and can pull a juicey cup out of thin air. Most of the time I do have a spare in the car or diaper bag but he had already inhaled that amidst the travel to and from Grandmas. Jaynee is now completely fed up with not being fed and whaling in the background as I explain we will be home in a few minutes and I am hungry and thirsty and tired and at least I fed you dinner I didn't have time to eat. Then Brianna says here is my cookie. I say Brianna I can not hold your cookie I am driving. Brianna Well when can you? Me Well do you hear Jaynee I really need to nurse her first thing when we get home. Can't you hold your own cookie. I hear that pout in her voice but mom you said you were hungry. I then lost it and was a flood gate of tears. It is just not worth it to me to be so stressed out that I miss the sweetness of my child. I talked to Cherry and learned that I need to say let me get back to you instead of offering my assistance. I need to look at my schedule and if I have parent teacher conferences or anything that is taxing to let someone else have the oppurtunity to serve. I may have to sit a few games out on the bench. At my mission reunion President Snow taught us that the general authorities are really concerned about the members spending more time doing and not becoming. I really don't want to resemble that remark. I would rather be kind to my children than take on one more thing and with four children right now I need to stop step back and come to grips with the fact that even a little might be too much for me right now.

Bubble Wrap

My brothers all three of them at least one time have told me that I live in a bubble. Funny how now that I work graveyards in the Emergency room, I take so much more comfort in that bubble. Is it really a bad thing to be distanced from this world that we live in? I was almost brought to tears the other night when I had to witness the tragic circumstances of an innocent child. I live in Simi Valley I can't even imagine (of course I can't because I live in a bubble) how much worse it is in some other places or how much more frequent. I am in the middle of my first full week back at work since I had Jaynee and fortunately Rob has been able to take care of her through the night even though she won't take a bottle, which honestly I am not that sad about since pumping is something that bursts my bubble UGGG...As I am writing this there is a belligerent patient screaming obsenities in that background and only ten minutes ago a father made very clear to me that he was not ever married to the mother of his teenage son. I felt awkward because I called her his wife. Am I the only one who finds that backward? Bubbles are great I think that I will blow some later today with Seth and Jaynee and hope they enjoy them as much as I do and for sure going to need a bubble bath after this shift.

 

Hat tricks and Halloween

I love watching the kids play soccer. This season their games have been at the same time more than I would like. Since Rob is Isaac's assistant coach I get to go to Brianna's games. It is fine she is on a stronger team than Isaac this year and it is fun to watch her and Chloe together. Isaac has scored every time I am not there. On Halloween he not only scored but he scored three times. Tiffany told Chloe and Brianna that she would take them to TUTU's for shaved ice if they pulled a hat trick. They tried but fell a little short scoring only two goals each. Brianna thought she and Chloe could put their goals together and share a shaved ice,she really knows how to finagle things for herself, that worked for Tiffany.
My kids are fickle about costumes and this year with a different party every night (well it felt like that) They got to be more than one thing. Jaynee was a flower (cute costume compliments of my mother in law) Seth was a police man (which he got cutest costume prize for), a dinosaur, Mikey mouse, and a dragon. Brianna was a fairy, a pumpkin, and a witch (which was adorable my mother in law made the costume) and Isaac was Obi 1 and a clown. The dress up truck has doubled in size. I actually didn't have a costume for Isaac when he went to his first party so he used his costume from last year but he loves Star Wars and some of his friends were Star Wars characters as well so it worked. I went to the costume store to find something for him but was blown away with how expensive the cool costumes were and couldn't afford to buy one so I thought I would just slip out but Seth decided he wanted to be Batman while we were there and man I carried him and Jaynee out of the store him in full blown tantrum mode.Why is it he wants to be Batman when we have every other superhero know to man at home in the dress up trunk? If I buy Batman for next Halloween chances are he is going to want to be a pirate...but I know better he will not be joining me to the costume store next time!

Annie's Baptism Sept 5,2009

Jaynee's Baby Blessing August 30, 2009

Isaac's baptism August 29, 2009